HOT

back to here again~~
recently too many family problem attacking..
and my parent might lost their job..
everyone keep complaining and complaining..
i try my best to act my part well but i wasted my time just like that..
just like my previous blog had said..
i try to help but i cant..
standing aside and watch like an idiot..
this is all what i can do...
this days,
i can conclude that,
life is not a journey in searching for oneself..
but journey to your own graveyard...



the weather is hot,
so do the emotion of other people..
HOT

i scold lot of people inside my heart these few days..
not to count those i scold face to face..
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what i really hate it,
i try to move on..
and people keep on taking my past mistake and splash it in front of me..
i know i make a mistake..
even the youngster treating me like that..
such a failure life i have...

i should not wasting my time on the net world..
i should face the reality and
facing note right now..


you can said that i am lazy
but you cant said i am stupid
and
act like as if you were clever than me..
I'm not trying to protecting my pride..
but you are stepping it over my head..
a smile or laugh
did not mean that human are born to be bully by you..
you are success in you academic life..
but when you are facing the society,
you are nothing..
people who had an attitudes like you,
are just a jerk..
worst than a jerk...
i may not promise that in future,
i will be successful that anyone you see..
but i will not failed...

whatever it is,
friends is a lied..
puik!!!
even if I'm alone,
i will not beg anyone...
friend is a joke when you are joke..
friend is invisible when you are problem..
so long 'joke'
everything is just a joke...
everything start with laughter and end with foul wording
forget the good the other had done to you and
splashing it with just a harsh eye sight..
this is me..
I'm your best joke
and your best enemy you never want to knew..
blah~

i never knew what you had said..
i never wanted to knew..
as you like if you wanna make everyone turn against me..
as you like if you wanna exclude me from you lists..


knowing people like you
had grew me up a lot..
had wake my up..
to see through people like you...
maybe i am the worst of all..
i did not worth being part of it..
cis!!!
i try to act rude
im avoiding everything..
i am rude..
i am nasty and messy..
THIS IS ME!!!
changes of me because of you
make me feel shame of myself..
whatever is it..
dont include me...
hmmph...