hope

haih..
I'm not in a mood for everything..
after receiving the news..
my souls seems fly away from me..
every second i spend at home,
remind me of my home back then..
when i escape from this home..
it feels.. good
i don't know whether everything back there were OK or not
am i worrying too much?


guilty within me..
when i am having fun,
an unexpected thing had happen..
i spend lots of money
and behind me, there are people suffering for me

this year is really a bad bad year
gosh... this is totally not fair for me
is it I'm having the best for the previous previous year
therefore.. all the bad is coming in now...
5 more days before the arrival of a brand new year..
i hope for nothing..
just safety of my beloved one....
threw all the bad one for me...
T.T


i have threw the assignment for two days..
I'm still haven touch anything..
if i still like this..
i guess..
I'm suicide~ing together with others people


i hope I'm the one who will be in jail but not you
i hope I'm the one who will fell down from motor but not you
i hope...